| been cheering myself up for the past few days. trying not to idle
myself to prevent tears from falling...... i portray an image that im
strong.... but who am i kidding?... i look stupid
pretending.
went to pier 1 for two straight nights. drinking my heart out!
funny i didnt get drunk and all! the second night was spent with
ate mich and ate crisel... ( i was even asked for an ID proving that i
was 18 or so.... i looked a minor..*sigh* as if thats something new.. )
they helped me out (if you call that help..) by introducing guys.
heck.. stupid guys. they were so ecsastic that ive just broken up! they
think they could get girls with their cheesy spiels. the more
guys i saw and met the more i came to this realization that: "even if
they bombard me with guys.. i would still want the one who made me
happy....."
we went home that night at 5:30 in the morning... i was still wide awake when we got home..
hate going to glorietta these days... it makes my eyes well up and
all..... people would stare as if crying is the biggest crime on earth.
ill be enrolling within the week. im excited to finally go back to
school!! sana ikaw din... lets straighten our lives out even if were
apart ayt?... try eating... i do it to lessen depression!
i was joking myself the other day... bka the next time we see each
other.. he has abs na and all.. tapos akoh im a big fat ass na!!
di ako nagrrebelde.... love ako nila papa.. love ko rin sila. they have
nothing against us. they just want all this at the right time.
"kung tayo.... tayo talaga... love you"
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| my goodness!!! its been a long while since i last wrote an entry... so many things happened.....
i lost my SGH d500.... given to me by *ahem* stupid me..
i stopped studying for one whole semester.. gone are the days of major pa cute fest in school..
homebuddy..
i already cut the tie that bonded pao and me before..... (would you believe?.. *sigh* but yeah... i did it!!!)
seems like my life's a mess dont you think....?! but hey... im a lot happier nowadays...
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| i feel so weak....
im miserable....
i was hurt..
and still hurting....
he doesnt seem to care...
he has a new life...
of his own...
without me in it.....
he doesnt call..
text...
no nothing...
why?...
i dont knw...
how?...
i stil dont know...
when?...
for one month..
one week...
and two days now....
and still counting.....
and me?...
im nothing...
empty...
breathing but dead...
il be fine...
i pray....
and i hope...
this whole thing...
is just a freakin ...
nightmare.....
how can anything like this suddenly slap me?..
really hard....
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| "i met someone"..... haha...nuff said....
i saw jen the other day {belated happy bday girl...  ) we talked.... she's a sweet girl and i really admire her... smart .. pretty... la lng ... thx jen... kya lng.............
pao and i .... we havent talked for a really long while now...... im knda used to it na nga eh.... not a beep.. wala..... i dont even know if he's alive.....cguro nga ngpdala koh with my hopes of having a long distance relationship work.... who am i kidding?! i try as much to stirr my mind off of this matter .... i date .. i go out proh tae tlga.. nssktan akoh. im so mixed up!! 
next school year's gonna be different..... not the usual trip going to makati.... cus UST's my new campus.......
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